Oh my. Has it really been that long?

Three days a week of attending classes has been a bit of a shock to my (cossetted) system, and I've really not had the brainspace to think about blogging. I think I possibly said that last post, didn't I? (So it's possibly as well I've not been saying the same thing on a more regular basis!)

As I explained, albeit briefly, I am doing A Course. Just briefly, it's a Work Skills & Training Course (formerly known, and still referred to as the CEEW course (pronounced as in 'queue')... Careers, Education Employment for Women, or something like that. A freebie course, designed to help women gain the confidence and skills to get back into the workforce.

Yo! That's me. Or as I like to say "... to help me figure out what I want to do when I grow up."

When I made that snap decision to do it a few weeks back, I was a bit concerned that it might be a bit of a mickey mouse course, and a waste of time. As I predicted/hoped I'm pretty much on top of a few of the subjects (like computers, and even Maths, even if I haven't done any specifically for around about 30 years!) And while I question the worth of doing Science at this point in my life, and I wonder if I really give a damn about 'Womens Studies', if nothing else, I'm giving the brain cells some exercise.

But then there is a 'subject' (of the airy, fairy, touchy, feely, BS variety) that is turning out to be the most valuable of all. Meh... that doesn't quite even do it justice. Life changing more like.

Apart from making me painfully aware of the self-discipline involved in having to be somewhere kind of important three days a week, what it is really doing is addressing my self-confidence. I feel like I've turned a corner, or conquered a mountain, or something equally metaphorical. I've suddenly discovered that I'm actually OK. That I'm not inferior to other people, that I've got something to offer, that my opinion is valid. That most of the time I actually do come across as the type of person I want to be, but also that I have the tools within myself to combat the not so wonderful traits that jump out occasionally.

I'll leave any further deep and meaningfuls for another time... but suffice to say I'm on a ride to somewhere positive. I have a feeling that this 'somewhere' down the track might involve writing, and so I do want to figure out how to make the most of blogging opportunities. I am not sure whether to totally reinvent myself blog-wise, or to simply renovate this place... but there is no rush to figure that out in the immediate future.

Meantime I'll try and get back here more often now - after all, I don't want to lose the handful of you that have kept my blogging ego afloat over the past year or so!!! (And just so you know, I have managed to keep reading everyone! - it's the creative output that has been on snooze.)

Today some panic over due dates of 'assignments' eased when it dawned on me that they were due at the end of the semester, not the end of this term! Doh! (Bit of anxiety had been happening there, yes!) They are nothing major, and stuff I should be able to do on my ear, but I've still not lost the ability to make mountains out of molehills - or turn simple tasks into much more complex ones.

I still have a 5 minute presentation and a science report to do in the next four weeks which are freaking me out just a little bit. And in the midst of that, I have to train somehow for THIS, and I'm not quite sure that one (1) 100 mile in a day ride completed 10 days ago will be enough!



















Yup. Some things haven't changed. I'm still crazy.